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1/ Feeling depressed/down The other 7 symptoms are: I don't know what to say. I match most of this. I have been trying SO hard to fight it. I try to surround myself with positive images, positive thoughts, positive people. It helps sometime and some days are better than others but I'm worried. No. Make that concerned. I don't know. I just don't care. I'm writing this here because I know that no one reads this. Or even cares about it. So I can be honest. Sure it's public and online but it's as if it doesn't exist. Just like me. Okay I take that back. I have people who love me. Who are concerned about me -- who I love and am concerned about. But frankly. I just wish I didn't hate myself so much. it's my default way of being. I try to force myself to value/love/honor myself. But it doesn't last. I am so sick of myself. It feels like a penalty that I got imprisoned with my ugly self for life. I'm worthless. I know it. And I just don't care. And I don't want attention. Leave me alone everybody. Just leave me alone.
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